This cat saved my sanity! After we moved to Roosevelt, our beloved cat Tabby ran away. She was gone for 2 weeks before finally showing up again on our doorstep one morning. It is crazy because I am not an animal lover but this cat has been a good addition and I was sad along with my kids when the cat turned up missing.
This post is partially out of frustration and sadness too. As I was packing to come to Roosevelt I received a real hate filled letter from my brother in law telling me what a horrible person I was and how he and everyone else in the family disliked me and he was happy to see me come out to Roosevelt and self destruct-A fact that is not quite true as we have learned that he in no way speaks for everyone. The truth is that he doesn't like me and he never will. He won't make a true apology and he will continue to give us the silent treatment and act like he is better than us.
I was already having mixed emotions about moving, but that sent me over the edge. I spent time reflecting and deciding I was going to make the most of it because after all, I have an amazing husband so some great things came from Roosevelt! I tried to be positive but I was so deeply sad. I cried often and for no good reason. When Tabby left, that seemed like the last straw. I even asked the Lord to help us find the cat. I knew it was stupid but I felt like everything else was not good, why did he have to go and let the cat run away on top of it all--just a dumb cat.
Well, the cat came back! We were so excited. I started to feel like the Lord did love me after all (stupid--I know). One day, when things were starting to settle in and feel ok, I found out the cat could not stay in the house. I even went so far as to fast and pray for a place we could stay (even though with my health issues, it's not really good for me to go without food). It worked. The Lord led me to some good people who were willing to finance a nice home for us so we could get out, get on our own and start working toward home ownership again.
We have loved our new home. We have loved having our own place.
I LOVE my cat and I love the fact that it was all because of Tabby that we were led to a great find that we might not have found otherwise because deals like this don't come along all the time!
I have reflected about it and decided that I will never be able to be ok with my brother in law. He will always be right even if he is wrong. He will always be the baby brother and he will always feel the way he does. I can't do more than I have done and I can't make him happy and I'm not going to spend any more time trying to worry about it. I have great friends. I have a great family. The Ross family has some great people. I'm sad that we can't get together and enjoy each other, but if that is the way he wants it, I'm ok with that too--that is his choice. I feel like an apology should have been extended and never was except through Kathy. I forgive him anyway even in his ignorance. We have moved on. We do like it in Roosevelt. We are happy and I can't let anyone take my happiness away and want me to be miserable like him. Yay for happiness, yay for new beginnings and yay for moving forward!!
2 comments:
Sometimes it feels great to vent. And I'm so thankful that tender mercies can come in the form of a cat - or whatever form they come in. Sometimes it is the very, very small things that let us know we are loved and watched over. I'm glad you (and Katie...I know she was so sad) found Tabby.
I have also found that sometimes when you are surrounded by negative and judgment, it's just better to remove yourself from the situation. So glad you were able to find this other tender mercy (the house) and move on with your life away from the scrutiny and insanity.
Love you!
I second Angie. That didn't seem like such a bad post to me - unless the truth hurts!
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